Sonya

I spent this Sunday with my darling here in Busan. It was unfortunately too quick as always. Time always goes way to fast and I want it back so much...

I shared a nice meal with my babe in PNU where I do hope we can go back to school and enjoy more University life together. Its a bustling campus where there seems to be a lot of things to do as well as many exciting things that we can try soon.
I saw her brother for a brief time and after leaving we went to Hyundae Beach.

Hyundae Beach as always is very beautiful. It was the Sand Festival right now and we were able to see beautiful sculptures. It was a very hot and sunny day.


I think of marriage so much. As Christina said I think about marriage 90% of the time. I am really serious now. I may only be 24 in American age but I do want to do so much more than most people my age and in general most people. My aspiration is to be married after I turn 25 and have a family before I turn 28. I am considering working in Korea for longer than 3 years but so far I have a commitment to myself for 3 years.

I know that things are hard. I regret wasting a lot of money on frivolous things. maybe if I hadn't I could have gotten married sooner. I think I lost the meaning of love when I was in my university. I turned my back on the word and actually was looking for it in all the wrong places.

I met a sonya that changed all of that. I never ever experienced love so deeply. i never ever can lose it and nothing could ever fill the big gap that exists in my heart. i am a walking zombie that chants WORK WORK WORK and thats all I want. I want to give her father a present that would enable him to forget my age, country etc.

Maybe I am crazy but I do desire more and to make things better.

I am a little confused too right now. I am going through some harsh doses of reality pertaining to my friendships. I am losing them everybody is running off and getting married back in America or off on adventures of their own and losing in touch with me.

My family is out on a limb and I am truly left alone for everything that I need or want. I never want my babe to be alone. My love is truly deeper than my life


Its Sunday and tomorrow is june. I have two more days of this session, 5 more days of work and 6 more days until I can hold my baby and I truly never ever want to let her go. I just want to make things work no matter what the cost. I feel guilty for leaving America and my family to overcome their problems on their own and I am now in the middle of a wonderful family that i want to be apart of and do as much as I can for. I want to change my job, and do anything I can for her and her family. my brother in law my sister in law, and my mother/father in law.

I love them so much and Want to do more than now