Me and Christina in a park near Gumi!
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Sonya
I spent this Sunday with my darling here in Busan. It was unfortunately too quick as always. Time always goes way to fast and I want it back so much...
I shared a nice meal with my babe in PNU where I do hope we can go back to school and enjoy more University life together. Its a bustling campus where there seems to be a lot of things to do as well as many exciting things that we can try soon.
I saw her brother for a brief time and after leaving we went to Hyundae Beach.
Hyundae Beach as always is very beautiful. It was the Sand Festival right now and we were able to see beautiful sculptures. It was a very hot and sunny day.
I think of marriage so much. As Christina said I think about marriage 90% of the time. I am really serious now. I may only be 24 in American age but I do want to do so much more than most people my age and in general most people. My aspiration is to be married after I turn 25 and have a family before I turn 28. I am considering working in Korea for longer than 3 years but so far I have a commitment to myself for 3 years.
I know that things are hard. I regret wasting a lot of money on frivolous things. maybe if I hadn't I could have gotten married sooner. I think I lost the meaning of love when I was in my university. I turned my back on the word and actually was looking for it in all the wrong places.
I met a sonya that changed all of that. I never ever experienced love so deeply. i never ever can lose it and nothing could ever fill the big gap that exists in my heart. i am a walking zombie that chants WORK WORK WORK and thats all I want. I want to give her father a present that would enable him to forget my age, country etc.
Maybe I am crazy but I do desire more and to make things better.
I am a little confused too right now. I am going through some harsh doses of reality pertaining to my friendships. I am losing them everybody is running off and getting married back in America or off on adventures of their own and losing in touch with me.
My family is out on a limb and I am truly left alone for everything that I need or want. I never want my babe to be alone. My love is truly deeper than my life
Its Sunday and tomorrow is june. I have two more days of this session, 5 more days of work and 6 more days until I can hold my baby and I truly never ever want to let her go. I just want to make things work no matter what the cost. I feel guilty for leaving America and my family to overcome their problems on their own and I am now in the middle of a wonderful family that i want to be apart of and do as much as I can for. I want to change my job, and do anything I can for her and her family. my brother in law my sister in law, and my mother/father in law.
I love them so much and Want to do more than now
I shared a nice meal with my babe in PNU where I do hope we can go back to school and enjoy more University life together. Its a bustling campus where there seems to be a lot of things to do as well as many exciting things that we can try soon.
I saw her brother for a brief time and after leaving we went to Hyundae Beach.
Hyundae Beach as always is very beautiful. It was the Sand Festival right now and we were able to see beautiful sculptures. It was a very hot and sunny day.
I think of marriage so much. As Christina said I think about marriage 90% of the time. I am really serious now. I may only be 24 in American age but I do want to do so much more than most people my age and in general most people. My aspiration is to be married after I turn 25 and have a family before I turn 28. I am considering working in Korea for longer than 3 years but so far I have a commitment to myself for 3 years.
I know that things are hard. I regret wasting a lot of money on frivolous things. maybe if I hadn't I could have gotten married sooner. I think I lost the meaning of love when I was in my university. I turned my back on the word and actually was looking for it in all the wrong places.
I met a sonya that changed all of that. I never ever experienced love so deeply. i never ever can lose it and nothing could ever fill the big gap that exists in my heart. i am a walking zombie that chants WORK WORK WORK and thats all I want. I want to give her father a present that would enable him to forget my age, country etc.
Maybe I am crazy but I do desire more and to make things better.
I am a little confused too right now. I am going through some harsh doses of reality pertaining to my friendships. I am losing them everybody is running off and getting married back in America or off on adventures of their own and losing in touch with me.
My family is out on a limb and I am truly left alone for everything that I need or want. I never want my babe to be alone. My love is truly deeper than my life
Its Sunday and tomorrow is june. I have two more days of this session, 5 more days of work and 6 more days until I can hold my baby and I truly never ever want to let her go. I just want to make things work no matter what the cost. I feel guilty for leaving America and my family to overcome their problems on their own and I am now in the middle of a wonderful family that i want to be apart of and do as much as I can for. I want to change my job, and do anything I can for her and her family. my brother in law my sister in law, and my mother/father in law.
I love them so much and Want to do more than now
Saturday, May 30, 2009
Workers Mold
i have just finished working the month of May...I had a five day holiday to begin the month and every Sunday off. I worked 152 hours that will finish on the 2nd of June that also marks the end of the session. I worked 32 hours on the Saturdays. I am sure I had the most hours out of all the Foreign Teachers. I am working hard to establish myself as a forerunner for better things to come.
My boss thinks I am setting the bar to high and that I am a work-aholic. He wants me to take a month off from working the Saturdays. I am not really wanting to since I feel desperate to make ends meet. I am wanting to work more and would love it if I had 12 hours a day. I like YBM but lately I am a little enraged at their methodology.
Registration pleading is making me feel insane. They care more about the precious enrollment than the supplies, equipment and the teachers well being. I am tired of hearing of my small pitfalls or mistakes and listening to the mercy of a corporate regime talk only about the Company money. Give me a break.
The teaching of English is done for the sole purpose of Business profit and engineering. I am not going to stand for that. I don't talk to Korean students as a business perspective, I am here for the students and will give them the tools that they need for their English skills and not the business hypocrisy that a Corporation stands for.
Are we businessmen or true educators hoping to create a better communion in the world?
I am for the latter and will continue to be cavalier and strident in my ways in my path towards making a brighter future for me and my darling.
I picture me in a job where I am bringing home 3-3.5 million a month and improving my skill for a company down the road or maybe working back in Gumi even though I know that Busan can be a gateway for our dreams.
I have more to say but I want to write longer tomorrow
My boss thinks I am setting the bar to high and that I am a work-aholic. He wants me to take a month off from working the Saturdays. I am not really wanting to since I feel desperate to make ends meet. I am wanting to work more and would love it if I had 12 hours a day. I like YBM but lately I am a little enraged at their methodology.
Registration pleading is making me feel insane. They care more about the precious enrollment than the supplies, equipment and the teachers well being. I am tired of hearing of my small pitfalls or mistakes and listening to the mercy of a corporate regime talk only about the Company money. Give me a break.
The teaching of English is done for the sole purpose of Business profit and engineering. I am not going to stand for that. I don't talk to Korean students as a business perspective, I am here for the students and will give them the tools that they need for their English skills and not the business hypocrisy that a Corporation stands for.
Are we businessmen or true educators hoping to create a better communion in the world?
I am for the latter and will continue to be cavalier and strident in my ways in my path towards making a brighter future for me and my darling.
I picture me in a job where I am bringing home 3-3.5 million a month and improving my skill for a company down the road or maybe working back in Gumi even though I know that Busan can be a gateway for our dreams.
I have more to say but I want to write longer tomorrow
Monday, May 25, 2009
Lifes Simplicity
Why is Life being made out to be so difficult?
i am doing my job to the utmost of my ability. Its simple. I am supposed to go teach my 6 classes per day and get paid for that hour. I have to dress up in some sort of professional demeanor and show up on time as well as abide by all of the policies that are outlined in either my contract or school policy.
Life is throwing all sorts of roadblocks in my way. Professionally, Personally, and psychologically. Sometimes I feel I am caving in due to the unneeded demands from society. I am already getting up early and staying up late. While its true I enjoy a 5-7 hour window I don't consider this a real break.
My job has called me in the middle of the afternoon asking for trivial things from keys to paperwork. They have invaded my house without asking by handing out an unauthorized spare key. They find faults at times when there really is no fault to be given.
Regardless I am content. I have an offering in Sinpyeong that helps me save more money and I am having some bonus time on the weekends. I am anxiously looking forward to next session.
I am on a course now to enjoy the rest of my life with the woman I love. We are fated to be together because we have stuck together through thick and thin. My heart is swollen from a 4 month vacation that left me confronted with more problems than the entire 14 months I stayed in Gumi.
Money is always going to be important. I am angry my friends in the past have backstabbed me thus far. Refusing to send an email or a phone call. People back home seem to be wallowing in the mire endowed in self pity and frankly speaking I am tired of it.
I don't particularly enjoy getting up at 5 am nor do I like 8 hours on Saturday but it pays the bills and is the bricks to my future so I am willing and don't care at all sincerely. It actually makes me happier to keep myself busy with many tasks in the days/weeks/months to follow.
I have a lot of things on my mind-School, career, kids, America but I have seen that life is really simple and the love I have now is pure and true and it will hold me steadfast even as I stand wavering against the odds.
i am doing my job to the utmost of my ability. Its simple. I am supposed to go teach my 6 classes per day and get paid for that hour. I have to dress up in some sort of professional demeanor and show up on time as well as abide by all of the policies that are outlined in either my contract or school policy.
Life is throwing all sorts of roadblocks in my way. Professionally, Personally, and psychologically. Sometimes I feel I am caving in due to the unneeded demands from society. I am already getting up early and staying up late. While its true I enjoy a 5-7 hour window I don't consider this a real break.
My job has called me in the middle of the afternoon asking for trivial things from keys to paperwork. They have invaded my house without asking by handing out an unauthorized spare key. They find faults at times when there really is no fault to be given.
Regardless I am content. I have an offering in Sinpyeong that helps me save more money and I am having some bonus time on the weekends. I am anxiously looking forward to next session.
I am on a course now to enjoy the rest of my life with the woman I love. We are fated to be together because we have stuck together through thick and thin. My heart is swollen from a 4 month vacation that left me confronted with more problems than the entire 14 months I stayed in Gumi.
Money is always going to be important. I am angry my friends in the past have backstabbed me thus far. Refusing to send an email or a phone call. People back home seem to be wallowing in the mire endowed in self pity and frankly speaking I am tired of it.
I don't particularly enjoy getting up at 5 am nor do I like 8 hours on Saturday but it pays the bills and is the bricks to my future so I am willing and don't care at all sincerely. It actually makes me happier to keep myself busy with many tasks in the days/weeks/months to follow.
I have a lot of things on my mind-School, career, kids, America but I have seen that life is really simple and the love I have now is pure and true and it will hold me steadfast even as I stand wavering against the odds.
Sunday, May 24, 2009
Family Life
So here i sit... I have become a bearded Norwegian dweller awaiting the fate that tomorrow will bring. My hair is getting long and curly and I have just finished the closure of another busy week and a fun weekend. I was sop happy to run to my darling last night and share a walk thru downtown Namp-dong. Unfortunately there isn't much to do here in this district but at least I was able to be with here. The days are hollowed alone and away from her.
I have the makings of everything great in my life. A job that is supplying me with many golden opportunities. I am getting OT pay, I am working at a company job, and I also am teaching lame high school students who need to show proper manners and overcome the idea of poor me and try to study even though its saturday. I worked 38 hours this week and will do so again starting tomorrow.
When I am with my gf I feel like a caring husband and a man wanting to become a devoted father. I have a job and I am going to find some way to pursue my education more. I wrote a professor of mine last week and am waiting for his reply. I am hoping he can bring me some good news since I am shot down at other twists and turns in my life.
There are plenty of answers around me and just waiting to be opened. The gate of tomorrow is lit with lights of opportunity.
I sit here wondering what I am waiting for, what I am trying to write as well as to who. Is this just for myself or am I trying to make a difference in someone else's life. I am not sure.
Tomorrow will begin a new day and a start to a new week with more opportunities.
I am hoping to embark on a journey that starts at 545 in the subways to get my life focus back on track.
there is nothing greater than family and my family I can start is what makes my heart stay afloat.
I have the makings of everything great in my life. A job that is supplying me with many golden opportunities. I am getting OT pay, I am working at a company job, and I also am teaching lame high school students who need to show proper manners and overcome the idea of poor me and try to study even though its saturday. I worked 38 hours this week and will do so again starting tomorrow.
When I am with my gf I feel like a caring husband and a man wanting to become a devoted father. I have a job and I am going to find some way to pursue my education more. I wrote a professor of mine last week and am waiting for his reply. I am hoping he can bring me some good news since I am shot down at other twists and turns in my life.
There are plenty of answers around me and just waiting to be opened. The gate of tomorrow is lit with lights of opportunity.
I sit here wondering what I am waiting for, what I am trying to write as well as to who. Is this just for myself or am I trying to make a difference in someone else's life. I am not sure.
Tomorrow will begin a new day and a start to a new week with more opportunities.
I am hoping to embark on a journey that starts at 545 in the subways to get my life focus back on track.
there is nothing greater than family and my family I can start is what makes my heart stay afloat.
Thursday, May 14, 2009
Noon Plight
This week has brought bad fortunes due to my contact lens. I am now wearing my glasses and paying a doctor fee of 3000won per day. I need to go there from 9am until nearly 10 in order to get examined.
The only good thing about this are twofold. One, I am giving my eyes some rest by wearing my glasses all week and secondly, I am opening my eyes to newer possibilities. I will wear my glassses once or twice a week after my eyes have officially healed.
Walking to the store to buy some groceries today lead me straight into the Jagalchi market. I want to explore this place more but sadly I refuse to do anything without my girlfriend. She is a big part of my life and the adventures that I can have here are truly meant for just her and I or myself alone.
I will write more about travel experiences and hopefully can find a working camera soon. I am disappointed because I have to wait for another month before I can finish my savings plan on account of a miscommunication.
I can't see well right now because of my eyesight nor can I communicate with commoners who see English as a threat. I wanted to transfer money and when I showed them what I wanted the woman was very confused and as a result made a huge mistake by transferring into the wrong account. I was so pissed.
I have a lot of pressure and stress mostly of which I put on myself but it bothers me that I am in this all alone.
Its now a Thursday. I want it to be next week so badly so i can start anew. I am awaiting news on my classes and trying to just keep myself busy.
Work isn't going as well as I would like it right now I am bogged down with trivial errands and can't wait to start a new session. This session my hours will be over 150 though!
I will write more soon but I need to get ready to go back to work.
The only good thing about this are twofold. One, I am giving my eyes some rest by wearing my glasses all week and secondly, I am opening my eyes to newer possibilities. I will wear my glassses once or twice a week after my eyes have officially healed.
Walking to the store to buy some groceries today lead me straight into the Jagalchi market. I want to explore this place more but sadly I refuse to do anything without my girlfriend. She is a big part of my life and the adventures that I can have here are truly meant for just her and I or myself alone.
I will write more about travel experiences and hopefully can find a working camera soon. I am disappointed because I have to wait for another month before I can finish my savings plan on account of a miscommunication.
I can't see well right now because of my eyesight nor can I communicate with commoners who see English as a threat. I wanted to transfer money and when I showed them what I wanted the woman was very confused and as a result made a huge mistake by transferring into the wrong account. I was so pissed.
I have a lot of pressure and stress mostly of which I put on myself but it bothers me that I am in this all alone.
Its now a Thursday. I want it to be next week so badly so i can start anew. I am awaiting news on my classes and trying to just keep myself busy.
Work isn't going as well as I would like it right now I am bogged down with trivial errands and can't wait to start a new session. This session my hours will be over 150 though!
I will write more soon but I need to get ready to go back to work.
Sunday, May 10, 2009
SangSa Byung
I just finished a long weekend. I made a mistake in my first post and will correct it here with an updated version....
First, I have a total of 156 hours of work this month. I wish I had more but by my figures this will still be a lot of Overtime. I am happy about this a lot.
My experience in Korea has brought me to some crossroads in my life now. SangSa means to be lovesick. Today is Sunday May 10th and I have many things to do this month.
Lovesickness is an awful thing. I am combating it everyday and am learning how to endure it. I often times miss my family, friends, America, or just my life in Missoula where everything was truly simple. People who are now fusspots and brooding over things are strange to me. My time in Missoula was often spent listening to social gossip. Here in Asia I am coming across real problems and trying to manage how to deal with these difficulties.
I am head over heels in Love with my gf. My family is leagues away and while it hurts sometimes I have grown accustomed to making ends meet outside the home. For the better part of 6 years I have been living on my own. It hard to believe I have been out of college for almost 2 years now to the date. I need to stay on track and get focused more because what I truly want is to make a stable career venture going.
My girlfriend just left today and I won't see her for awhile yet. Its the worst feeling in the world, going to sleep at night alone, eating and not talking to anyone in the house because I am always at work and I have no one else here but I want to sacrifice so much in order to make this work.
Meeting her family has been the best thing to happen to me since coming back. I can't understand why Korean fathers are so strict. If he could just understand us more everything could be better. I am not going to become richer anytime in this year but all I can hope is that I can climb the YBM company ladder.
MY Sangsa can be controlled and I can endure but I know I can't live without my honey that's for sure.
It would bring me great pleasure if my family could meet her and see the wonders we have in our life.
I have 21 days of May left and in this time I need to write more, study Korean, and work a lot more hours.
I will record an experience as often as I can.
First, I have a total of 156 hours of work this month. I wish I had more but by my figures this will still be a lot of Overtime. I am happy about this a lot.
My experience in Korea has brought me to some crossroads in my life now. SangSa means to be lovesick. Today is Sunday May 10th and I have many things to do this month.
Lovesickness is an awful thing. I am combating it everyday and am learning how to endure it. I often times miss my family, friends, America, or just my life in Missoula where everything was truly simple. People who are now fusspots and brooding over things are strange to me. My time in Missoula was often spent listening to social gossip. Here in Asia I am coming across real problems and trying to manage how to deal with these difficulties.
I am head over heels in Love with my gf. My family is leagues away and while it hurts sometimes I have grown accustomed to making ends meet outside the home. For the better part of 6 years I have been living on my own. It hard to believe I have been out of college for almost 2 years now to the date. I need to stay on track and get focused more because what I truly want is to make a stable career venture going.
My girlfriend just left today and I won't see her for awhile yet. Its the worst feeling in the world, going to sleep at night alone, eating and not talking to anyone in the house because I am always at work and I have no one else here but I want to sacrifice so much in order to make this work.
Meeting her family has been the best thing to happen to me since coming back. I can't understand why Korean fathers are so strict. If he could just understand us more everything could be better. I am not going to become richer anytime in this year but all I can hope is that I can climb the YBM company ladder.
MY Sangsa can be controlled and I can endure but I know I can't live without my honey that's for sure.
It would bring me great pleasure if my family could meet her and see the wonders we have in our life.
I have 21 days of May left and in this time I need to write more, study Korean, and work a lot more hours.
I will record an experience as often as I can.
Friday, May 8, 2009
Behind the Scenes
This is an introductory blog to tell you a little bit about myself. Its currently 10pm on May 8th in my humble abode in Busan Korea.
I am working in what is now my 5th month at YBM-an adult ELS Academy program and one of the premier teaching programs in Korea. Its a corporate chain that at the moment I am glad to be apart of minus all of the corporate bullshit.
This month I have so much work to do its amazing, and almost unbelievable but I am happy. I can make huge dividends that may pay off later for my blessed future.
I am a working man and a workaholic this month. I am working in Sinpyeong at an offsite location where I meet company businessmen for an hour drink coffee say a little pleasantries and walk out the door.
I go to YBM where I am teaching 6 classes Hot Topics, Level 3's and a level 4 and 2.
I am working on Saturday teaching 4 classes of High schoolers, and now I will also teach 4 hours of adult classes. i hope for more but maybe I need to be careful with what I wish for. I didn't work so much last month.
I have over 30 students!
Last month I had 6 classes which included my Sinpyeong trip, 4 high school classes and only 14 students if that.
I am hoping to continue racking up astronomical amounts of hours!
I have 20hrs at Sinpyeong 120 in YBM 16 for high school and 16 for Adults =32 hours on Saturday!
total=172 hours
Go Go Go... I need to go to bed and get some Zs for more crazy time in room 504 I can't wait until I can teach more and more effectively soon
pictures to come as soon as possible
I am working in what is now my 5th month at YBM-an adult ELS Academy program and one of the premier teaching programs in Korea. Its a corporate chain that at the moment I am glad to be apart of minus all of the corporate bullshit.
This month I have so much work to do its amazing, and almost unbelievable but I am happy. I can make huge dividends that may pay off later for my blessed future.
I am a working man and a workaholic this month. I am working in Sinpyeong at an offsite location where I meet company businessmen for an hour drink coffee say a little pleasantries and walk out the door.
I go to YBM where I am teaching 6 classes Hot Topics, Level 3's and a level 4 and 2.
I am working on Saturday teaching 4 classes of High schoolers, and now I will also teach 4 hours of adult classes. i hope for more but maybe I need to be careful with what I wish for. I didn't work so much last month.
I have over 30 students!
Last month I had 6 classes which included my Sinpyeong trip, 4 high school classes and only 14 students if that.
I am hoping to continue racking up astronomical amounts of hours!
I have 20hrs at Sinpyeong 120 in YBM 16 for high school and 16 for Adults =32 hours on Saturday!
total=172 hours
Go Go Go... I need to go to bed and get some Zs for more crazy time in room 504 I can't wait until I can teach more and more effectively soon
pictures to come as soon as possible
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